A Journey to Nineteen

A month named after Maia

A transition from spring to summer

24 rotations on its axis

19 circles round the Sun

A boy born, his future uncertain

Years of hardship, keep enduring pain

Heart shattered at 16,

And haven’t recovered from the loss

Her body cremated and ashes in the river

Never got a chance to bid farewell

Turned 17, oh what a miserable life

School life turned to hell, full of rumors and lies

At 18, graduated from school

His efforts and work never came to ripe

I hope you’re okay on this fine Friday

Accept my regards as this poet turns 19

Cause I haven’t given up yet

About- This poet turns 19 today and to celebrate it, i penned a small poem about my struggles and pain ever since i turned 16. Life before 16 was fun, i was happy and enjoying my days without any worries. And after that, life has never been the same. Every single day is challenging and full of hardship. So i wrote it as a message to my 19 year old self to never give up and i will continue trying my best.

Snakes That Befriend and Kill

death came from rattle snakes

build a fort just to dig his grave

air became thinner inside

with every single inhale

mesmerized by the good feeling

his obscured vision of love

couldn’t differ between words or places

memories that still haunt him at dawn

 

one common bite and 100 different faces

excruciating pain and smile on their faces

black dahlia flourished in my rose garden

my eyes rained, someone punctured the cloud

scandals that can ruin lives, lies that can take lives

a friend is not a friend of yours

beware of those snakes

who befriend you and kill your soul

About- This poet felt the need to write a poem about my so called "friends" who claimed to be nice, kind but turned out to be all fake, toxic. I call such peoples snakes who will hurt you while shaking your hand. I was inspired to write this after my own song "Toxic Traits", which you cannot find anywhere to listen because i haven't released it. Haha. 

Tortured: Poet and Seasons

i feel tortured in winter, the fog  reminds me of good times

when my gray world turned to blue

i feel tortured in autumn, a season spent missing someone

a total love blackout

i feel tortured in summer, a summer meant to be full of love 

turned to gray

i feel tortured to see rain, it reminds me of weeping nights

and when i was in pain

a tortured poet and his tortured seasons

a tortured poet forced to be tortured by torturous peoples

because of their torturous sin

a question why did i associated my memories

and made my seasons tortured?

About:- The poem talks about how someone's memories can even make you hate seasons because you gave them all you had but in return, what you got was betrayal and you are now hurt and feel tortured because every beautiful things about seasons now makes you feel tortured as it brings out a sea of memories into your head. The idea to use Tortured Poet came to me from the Taylor Swift's eleventh studio album which is titled as "The Tortured Poets Department". So i wanted to use this and express what i always wanted to pen, what i had only wrote in one of my song before and wanted to write it in poetry.

Note- I'm not claiming that i am a tortured poet, its just an idea which i wrote this poem on but this poem certainly is from a personal place

Solace Seeker

darkness dark the dark storm

my solace disappeared in that storm

one, two, three, I counted days and nights

lavish emotions, I cannot afford to feel

cactus grew out instead of rose

rush of emotions, I never felt before

 

my thousand white tulips, turned to a thousand red rose

clouds cleared and baby blue sky

in aeon, I felt at ease in that storm,

i fought my fear and my ghosts

About:- The poem talks about overcoming the despair and pain and trying to accept the reality. 

Lakeside Summer Serenity

dear gentle reader’s, go out and have fun

the summer is here, go visit a bookstore

feel the zephyr as it touches your face

when sun is up high and

swan’s playful game in the lake

sit by the lake with poetry in one hand

watch ladybug climb up your hand

lay down your head on the green grass

watch the paintings that tree shadow paints

forget your tiring efforts, make new memories

About:- The poem screams summer and what could be more fun than reading poetry sitting by the lake. 

Mirage in a Dead Desert

drops full of anger, guilt and betrayal pouring down

from my eyes like rain in a sleepless night

soaked in blood and it’s stains on my gray shirt

two daggers stabbed at the same spot

their existence in my words and work

but for them I’m just a mirage,

a pseudo reflection of life in a dead desert

a hand to pull them out of it, a toy to be pushed into it

a ecosystem flourishing in peace but burnt down by fire one night

my quill, my papers untouched for a time,

lived in an illusion, a lie, that unforgivable sin

About:- This poem deals with emotion of betrayal from someone who you used to be close, they exist in everything you do whether its a piece of art or your memories but for them you were never really important. 

Happiness in Goodbye

standing on a cliff, waving at the ship

drought hit eyes, a sorrow ending

happiness in goodbye, never destined

 lessons learned, pages turned

a new chapter waiting for his return

five steps back and five steps forward

amorous story and remergence

About:- This poem deals with the most important emotion that is moving on from something that you can't have whether its a person or a dream you always wished and worked for. It is about the sudden realization that struck to this poet when someone he loved left him and the dream to become something he always worked for never came to ripe. Now the author knows what happens in your, there is always a reason behind it and new chapter is waiting.

Sad Amorist

i am a sad amorist

who seeks to understand the love songs of the bird

the stories, the notes they sing that are open

but less understood at the same time

a deluge of emotions that leaks a stream from my eyes

i am a sad amorist

who seeks to look for the storm in the silence of a river

the tranquility that seems to exist but not at heart

obliviousness of the age, my dreams torn apart

About:- This poem is about this poet's feelings that how he felt during a period of time in his life when someone he cherished and loved left him while he was trying to sense the upcoming storm that swept him and his dreams down the valley of sadness making him a sad amorist. However, i leave it open for gentle readers interpretation.

His Whispers in Silence

verses dipped in gray ink

his blue sky failed to turn pink

color changed faster than light

love in gray his soul screams

moon obscured by the fog

he dreamed of anastolic dreams

 

tattoos are hard to get off

his mind made him a slave

refused to burn in that fire

he decided to stay at same place

wishing on that wishful star

he burned his pride and let his tears rain

 

picked like a flower in the storm

by tyrant monsters like its a fun game

hurt his pride, and took his crown

his days never saw daylight

in that dark haze brought by the storm

search for a beacon came to an end

 

live as an alien in his own town

in void of someone, he couldn't lift up his quill

blood moon and screams in his head

pain and bruises stuck under his skin

parted ways when times were rough

his quietude and joy's eclipse

About:- This is a poem about betrayal, love, loss, sadness and struggle while keeping all those emotions up to yourself. 

Poetry Database

My name is Maanvinder Pilania and i love writing which is the sole reason why this blog exists in the first place. This blog is a place where i will be sharing the poems that i have wrote when i was at my lowest, happy, sad ,anger. This this poetry collection is build upon a broad spectrum of emotions. I have also wrote poems that are about nostalgia and peace that comes from nature, and along with that some poems that i wrote for other people. Apart from writing poetry, i also write many things but that i cannot disclose as i won't ever be sharing those.

Below is the database (table) for all the published poems with the link to read them. There were hundreds of poems that i have penned but i will not disclose those because they were not written with the purpose for sharing, at least under my real name.

You can follow me on this journey at my Instagram handle @MaanvinderWrites & for further inquiries can contact me at: contact.maanvinderpilania@gmail.com.

Poem Name	Link	Date Penned	Date Published	Part
His Whispers in Silence	Published	April 22, 2024	May 16, 2024	Part-I
Sad Amorist	Published	April 23, 2024	May 17, 2024	Part-I
Solace Seeker	Published	April 25, 2024	May 21, 2024	Part-I
Happiness in Goodbye	Published	April 30, 2024	May 18, 2024	Part-I
Mirage in a Dead Desert	Published	May 03, 2024	May 19, 2024	Part-I
Tortured: Poet and Seasons	Published	May 03, 2024	May 22, 2024	Part-I
Snakes That Befriend and Kill	Published	May 08, 2024	May 23, 2024	Part-I
Lakeside Summer Serenity	Published	May 10, 2024	May 20, 2024	Part-II
Silence of the Night	Published	May 19, 2024	July 26, 2024	Part-I
A Journey to Nineteen	Published	May 20, 2024	May 24, 2024	Part-I
Dear ___afb	Published	May 25, 2024	September 21, 2024	Part-I
Euphonious Summer Evening	Published	May 26, 2024	July 27, 2024	Part-II
The Wallflower That Fade and Shine	Published	June 1, 2024	September 30, 2024	Part-I
Veil of Despair	Published	June 18, 2024	July 28, 2024	Part-I
Crying Sky, Silent Heart	Published	June 30, 2024	August 31, 2024	Part-I
Endless Echoes	Published	July 11, 2024	July 29, 2024	Part-I
Blue: A Shade of Gray	Published	July 20, 2024	September 22, 2024	Part-I
Cosmic Longing: Un Amore Irragguiungibile	Published	July  24,2024	July 25, 2024	Part-I
Cuore A Cuore [Heart to Heart]	Published	July 25, 2024	November 23, 2024	Part-III
Dancing With the Devil	Published	July 26, 2024	July 30, 2024	Part-I
In Chains of Blood	Published	July 27, 2024	September 23, 2024	Part-I
Illusions of Tranquility	Published	July 28, 2024	September 24, 2024	Part-II
Betwixt the Nature	Published	July 28, 2024	September 18, 2024	Part-II
Dull Reflections	Published	July 29, 2024	September 20, 2024	Part-I
Swan on Still Waters	Published	July 29, 2024	September 15, 2024	Part-I
Happy But Envious	Published	July 30, 2024	September 29, 2024	Part-I
Freedom in the Starry Night	Published	July 30, 2024	September 11, 2024	Part-II
Dark Clouds That Heal	Published	July 30, 2024	September 7, 2024	Part-II
Woven Memories	Published	July 31, 2024	September 9, 2024	Part-I
August Knocked at My Door	Published	August 1, 2024	August 1, 2024	Part-I
Spears of Betrayal	Published	August 2, 2024	August 2, 2024	Part-I
Seeking Forgiveness	Published	August 2, 2024	August 3, 2024	Part-I
The Regrets Road to Lake Harmony	Published	August 3, 2024	August 4, 2024	Part-I
Oblivion’s Train	Published	August 4, 2024	August 5, 2024	Part-I
Cinematic Reveries	Published	August 5, 2024	August 6, 2024	Part-I
Glassy Heart	Published	August 6, 2024	August 7, 2024	Part-I
Haunted Midnights [Part-1]	Published	August 7, 2024	September 25, 2024	Part-I
Dissolve in Darkness	Published	August 15, 2024	August 22, 2024	Part-I
Decipher His Thoughts	Published	August 16, 2024	September 13, 2024	Part-I
Rebekah	Published	August 16, 2024	August 23, 2024	Part-I
Wait and Weight	Published	August 16, 2024	August 24, 2024	Part-I
Funeral of Our Love	Published	August 17, 2024	August 25, 2024	Part-I
Graveyard of Memories	Published	August 18, 2024	September 17, 2024	Part-I
The Weight of Your Silence	Published	August 21, 2024	September 27, 2024	Part-I
Flowers at my Funeral	Published	August 25, 2024	August 31, 2024	Part-I
Under The Same Daylight	Published	August 26, 2024	August 26, 2024	Part-I
Three Summers Ago	Published	August 26, 2024	September 5, 2024	Part-I
Celosia in my Garden	Published	August 27, 2024	September 3, 2024	Part-I
The Color of Betrayal	Published	August 27, 2024	August 27, 2024	Part-I
To Die or Return	Published	August 28, 2024	August 28, 2024	Part-I
Tomb of Unrest	Published	August 29, 2024	August 29, 2024	Part-I
Ashes of Our Love Affair	Published	August 30, 2024	August 30, 2024	Part-I
Whispers to September	Published	August 31, 2024	September 1, 2024	Part-I
Grand Plan of Escaping	Published	September 1, 2024	September 2, 2024	Part-I
Locked in Tower	Published	September 2, 2024	September 4, 2024	Part-I
The Gardener Who Uses Magic	Published	September 3, 2024	September 16, 2024	Part-I
Pen as Sword	Published	September 4, 2024	September 6, 2024	Part-I
A Homeless Heart	Published	September 5, 2024	September 8, 2024	Part-I
Never to be Same	Published	September 6, 2024	September 10, 2024	Part-I
The Savior’s Dawn	Published	September 7, 2024	September 12, 2024	Part-I
Talking to Memories	Published	September 8, 2024	September 14, 2024	Part-I
Savior i Seek	Published	September 10, 2024	September 19, 2024	Part-I
The Waiting Shore	Published	September 11, 2024	September 28, 2024	Part-I
The Idea of You	Published	September 13, 2024	September 28, 2024	Part-I
Night After You	Published	September 14, 2024	September 29, 2024	Part-I
Haunted Midnights [Part-2]	Published	September 15, 2024	September 26, 2024	Part-I
The Endless Journey to Your Shore	Published	September 17, 2024	September 30, 2024	Part-I
Lingering in the Rain	Published	September 29, 2024	October 20, 2024	Part-III
That Momentary Encounter	Published	October 1, 2024	November 2, 2024	Part-I
In Denial, On Fire	Published	October 2, 2024	November 8, 2024	Part-I
A Savior in the War	Published	October 3, 2024	November 5, 2024	Part-I
Victory After the Cold	Published	October 4, 2024	November 6, 2024	Part-I
Well in Well?	Published	October 5, 2024	November 7, 2024	Part-I
Poetry of the End	Published	October 6, 2024	November 4, 2024	Part-I
Chained to the Memories	Published	October 7, 2024	October 26, 2024	Part-I
Cemetery of Dreams	Published	October 8, 2024	November 3, 2024	Part-I
Of Spirits, Memories, and Forget-Me-Not	Published	October 14, 2024	October 25, 2024	Part-I
Winter’s Call to Let it Go	Published	October 24, 224	October 24, 2024	Part-I
November is my Muse	Published	November 1, 2024	November 1, 2024	Part-I
Man Dressed as Clown	Published	November 8, 2024	November 22, 2024	Part-III
Ghost in a Glittery Room	Published	November 9, 2024	November 11, 2024	Part-I
Plea in Our Eyes	Published	November 10, 2024	November 12, 2024	Part-I
That Fleeting Feeling of Longing	Published	November 10, 2024	November 16, 2024	Part-I
Tortured Feeling Called Moving On	Published	November 10, 2024	November 17, 2024	Part-I
Fire Crackers and Her Smile	Published	November 10, 2024	November 15, 2024	Part-I
I Don’t Deserve You	Published	November 12, 2024	November 19, 2024	Part-I
Before it Could Bloom	Published	November 13, 2024	November 18, 2024	Part-I
The Moment I Lost You	Published	November 13, 2024	November 20, 2024	Part-I
Talking to the Moon	Published	November 14, 2024	November 21, 2024	Part-I
Unspoken Affections: Part-I	Published	November 15, 2024	November 23, 2024	Part-I
Unspoken Affections: Part-II	Published	November 15, 2024	November 24, 2024	Part-I
Unspoken Affections: Part-III	Published	November 16, 2024	November 25, 2024	Part-I
Unspoken Affections: Part-IV	Published	November 16, 2024	November 26, 2024	Part-I
Unspoken Affections: Part-V	Published	November 17, 2024	November 27, 2024	Part-I
Unspoken Affections: Part-VI	Published	November 18, 2024	November 28, 2024	Part-I
Unspoken Affections: Part-VII	Published	November 19, 2024	November 29, 2024	Part-I
Unspoken Affections: Part-VIII	Published	November 20, 2024	November 30, 2024	Part-I
Unspoken Affections: Part-IX	Published	November 21, 2024	December 1, 2024	Part-I
Unspoken Affections: Part-X	Published	November 22, 2024	December 2, 2024	Part-I
Memories and Melodies	Published	November 22, 2024	December 3, 2024	Part-I
The Dark Room	Published	December 10, 2024	January 1,2025	Part-I
Echoes of Despair	Published	December 12, 2024	January 3, 2025	Part-I
A Reverie Unspoken	Published	December 14, 2024	February 24, 2025	Part-I
Child of Moon Awake With Ghosts	Published	December 23, 2024	December 25, 2024	Part-III
The Silence	Published	January 1, 2025	January 5, 2025	Part-I
The Mirror	Published	January 2, 2025	January 7, 2025	Part-I
In Search of Light	Published	January 3, 2025	January 9, 2025	Part-I
The Script	Published	January 4, 2025	January 11, 2025	Part-I
Zombie	Published	January 5, 2025	January 13, 2025	Part-I
The Hollow Echo	Published	January 6, 2025	January 15, 2025	Part-I
The Invisible Chains	Published	January 6, 2025	January 17, 2025	Part-I
The Dark Passenger	Published	January 7, 2025	January 19, 2025	Part-I
The Heavy Heart	Published	January 8, 2025	January 21, 2025	Part-I
The Quiet Battle	Published	January 8, 2025	January 23, 2025	Part-I
The Falling Tears	Published	January 8, 2025	January 25, 2025	Part-I
The Loneliness	Published	January 9, 2025	January 27, 2025	Part-I
The Silence Between the Stars	Published	January 9, 2025	April 1, 2025	Part-I
Apology in the Dark	Published	January 9, 2025	April 5, 2025	Part-I
The Fading Colors	Published	January 10, 2025	January 28, 2025	Part-I
The Space Between Us	Published	January 10, 2025	April 9, 2025	Part-I
Fading Stars	Published	January 12, 2025	April 11, 2025	Part-I
Stares That Burned the Air	Published	January 16, 2025	April 16, 2025	Part-I
A Journey Through an Old Photograph	Published	January 18, 2025	April 19, 2025	Part-I
Forsaken and Blue	Published	January 19, 2025	April 14, 2025	Part-I
Lost Connections	Published	January 24, 2025	April 24, 2025	Part-I
A Pianist	Published	January 28, 2025	April 25, 2025	Part-I
Beginning of Storm	Published	January 29, 2025	April 12, 2025	Part-I
Tragic & Unfair	Published	January 29, 2025	April 22, 2025	Part-I
Name on My Lips	Published	February 3, 2025	April 7, 2025	Part-I
Pages of Diary	Published	February 8, 2025	April 25, 2025	Part-I
Nature’s Plight	Published	February 28, 2025	February 28, 2025	Part-III
Bleeding Bones	Published	March 21, 2025	April 3, 2025	Part-I
I Sent The Text: An Epilogue	Published	March 25, 2025	April 25, 2025	Part-I
My Aid	Published	April 4, 2025	May 8, 2025	Part-I
Savior I Imagined	Published	April 5, 2025	May 2, 2025	Part-I
Your Muse	Published	April 6, 2025	April 12, 2025	Part-I
Too Weak to Tell You	Published	April 9, 2025	May 3, 2025	Part-I
Melody of the Forbidden	Published	April 9, 2025	May 4, 2025	Part-I
Vampires in the Night	Published	April 12, 2025	May 5, 2025	Part-I
Escape With a Kiss	Published	April 12, 2025	May 9, 2025	Part-I
Idea of You But Not Face	Published	April 12, 2025	May 10, 2025	Part-I
Cigarette Kisses	Published	April 15, 2025	May 7, 2025	Part-I
You Heard My Hurt	Published	April 15, 2025	May 11, 2025	Part-I
Eyes That Hurt	Published	April 16, 2025	May 12, 2025	Part-I
Legacy of Our Story	Published	April 16, 2025	May 13, 2025	Part-I
Side Character	Published	April 16, 2025	May 14, 2025	Part-I
I Can’t Blame Anyone	Published	April 16, 2025	May 15, 2025	Part-I
Campus Confessions: The Prologue	Published	April 21, 2025	May 1, 2025	Part-I
Bled into Art	Published	April 25, 2025	May 6, 2025	Part-I
149 poems later	Published	May 8, 2025	May 16, 2025	Part-I