Cosmic Longing: Un Amore Irragguiungibile

It is a poem birthed from the inner turmoil in my head that is never at peace. It's about trying your best, giving your everything but still ending up in a shitty place, knowing the pain that comes from it is here to stay and will haunt you for evermore because when you finally accept the defeat, you look for reasons, reasons to stay here and reasons to stay sane everyday. To be honest, this is actually the second version of a poem that i was originally started to write but that one is now a whole another poem and its called "Astronomy: A Love That I Could Never Have" because at that time i was feeling a lot of things. Like crying at the thought of being stuck in my life, for never getting to chase my dream, for being a loser and that thought still continues to haunt me. 

everyone flying high above the clouds

a gasp and i fell on the ground,

my blue ink is now red, glittering with tears

their blue ink fought the great war, the real winners

pain for evermore caused by the dagger,

a dream so grand, an epic defeat

a search party sent into the woods,

i pray now & then to rise

a latibule to reverse the augury

ended up in a chimera

someone set fire to the woods

suffering from asphyxiation

learnt about the twinkling lights in the sky

learnt about the script that was never mine

i dreamed to be so high, stargazer is just a word now

my dream shattered, i cried

an excruciating pain