Fire in My Dreamland: An Epilogue

my dreams are what others chase

i have been mourning over something 

that everyone has

and everyone has a story about how it shattered

today i was confronted with a truth

that i had been ignoring for so long

it is my skills that matters the most

i love stars but maybe writing is what i was made for

Written on- February 18, 2026; 7:34pm.

This poem is part of "Fire in My Dreamland: A Poetry Series". Even though this epilogue poem was written before some of the poems i later wrote for this series, this poem still summarized the fate of mine. It ended with astronomy but found a beginning in writing. I will forever mourn that version of mine who almost had it all but time is moving forward and it won't stop for me to catch up with others. So you just have to move forward no matter how hard it gets. This thought is the only one that is driving me, otherwise i almost lost myself a year ago. 

Hanging from Shoulder

failure hangs from my shoulder

and it is too late to take my dreams back

they are now locked inside a vault

and fate hid the key inside a black hole

failure hangs from my shoulder

and my lover has long departed my shore

the one who shared the consciousness

the one who shared the dream

Written on- November 26, 2025; 8:03pm

This poem is part of "Fire in My Dreamland: A Poetry Series". 

Living a Dream

in my mind, i try to live a dream

where i go to my dream college

and has a perfect personal life

i have a lover waiting at my dorm

after i return from taking lectures

then we both look at the stars and fall asleep

in my mind, i try to live a dream

where i have nothing to fear about

and have a perfect college life

i have so many friends

with common goals and interests

and i just sit in the evening facing the sun.

Written on- December 24, 2025; 7:03pm

This poem is part of "Fire in My Dreamland: A Poetry Series". It is a re-imagined version for "A Savior in the War" poem except there is no need for a savior because its fictional and in that i never lost my dream for me to look for a savior.