Songs

This page contains information about the songs that i have written. The first song that i wrote was in November 2022 but then i stopped and almost a year later in October 2023, i picked up my pen again. Since 2023, i have written so many songs but i haven't shared any. The ones that i shared on my socials are just random songwriting snippets of song. This means these are not complete versions of the song from the vault.

Love in Gray (2023) Lyrics

you showed me love in gray

when i wanted to end my life

in those sad, lonely nights

thought it would never change

 

This is a small snippet from my song "Love in Gray" that i wrote on December 25, 2023. The song is about meeting your savior while your life is crumbling down. In other words, its about finding relief while your life is in chaos. 

She's in the Stars (2024) Lyrics

I spent all of my night

praying for her to be alright

not in a place to visit her

so i waited for her return

woke up from a dream

in which she is laughing

got a call from the doctor

who said he is sorry

now she is in the stars

looking down upon me

she loved to make laugh

with her funny dances

now she is in the stars

looking down upon me

she loved to make me laugh

with her funny little dances

 

I started writing this song on January 16, 2024 but it took me some time to finish it. This is just a small snippet of the final version of that song. Its about a very haunting period in my life. 

Don't Leave Me (2025) Lyrics

I'm not there at the mailbox

but mourning a loss

and father don't leave me

drowning and let me die

my anxiety got the grip on me

I feel like die every fucking night

and the voices speaking loudly 

This is a small snippet from my song that I started to write on May 14, 2025. Its about the loss of a dream. I sat down to write this after I had a panic attack, where after sitting alone for sometime in the dark, I came up with these lines. The complete song is now resting in the vault.

Could've Been (2026) Lyrics

soft skin of your palm

as i held your hand

then you looked up at me 

as a sign to run downstairs

soft skin of your palm

as i held your hand

then you looked up at me 

as a sign to run downstairs

you know i will go

wherever you lead

i did things unimaginable 

that i can't forget

and in the wake of your memory

i sit and

mourn my loss of what could've been

 

I wrote this song after reading my journal from 2022. I realised how much i loved this person. So far, i have been ignoring this story because i didn't want to look desperate, miserable in the eyes of this person. But at the end of the day, every person in my life is a character, possessing endless possibilities for me to write about. This song is written from a bittersweet place and i wish the story had an Elysium ending and the two characters didn't just drifted away as "friends", who acts like strangers now. The ache behind it is real. It was a hard read for me to go through my diary entry from that time. I was the bravest version of myself with this muse. I write this songs on May 1, 2026 and this is just a small snippet of it. 

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