Ashes of Us: An Epilogue

i don't know when but 

i stopped receiving invitations,

i was already running low-

low on the number of people i could count,

they say everything happens for a reason

i also know that much now,

but i hate that it all happened to me

fate made me realise in the cruelest way possible,

that i'm on my own on these empty roads

yet it's good to walk alone, knowing i'm alone

I Live Through Escape

from a place of sadness and heartbreak

i write this as i say

"now i always disappear on people, 

you see this has been a great escape

others first performed this one on me

when i almost lost my sanity"

i slowly disappeared from my friends life

so the call lines finally end up rusting

before any betrayal comes my way

this is my new greatest way to love, live and escape

Small Circle

they all pushed me to the edge

and i fear this poet quickly adapted with it

everyone left after they entered, with sirens in the background

that told me enough and about the need to survive

everyone killed a version of me

yet i fight, heading back into my safe space

a circle that is very small

and only holds space for this poet